i guess it is juz another dae wen i start to tink of u again...
can u remember the first time u hurt me? u begged for my forgiveness so many times and yet my pride did nt allow me to forgive u? and finally wen i did, i told u "we will be luffing abt this sumdae.." the dae has arrived.. i m luffing abt it... thru my tears...
if i had a dollar for each time i cried ova u, for u and for myself, for being so stupid as to believe in u... i would haf enuf money to indulge myself in pleasures and nt caring abt anyting else for the rest of myself... unfortunately, no one did make me such a deal... so i am juz left here... alone.. wid my eyes running dry...
wen i knew tt u were leaving, i cried.. i sobbed... i blamed every1, everyting... bt even so... my tears, my pain, my anguish, my hurt, my love... none of it gt thru to u... u had to leave.. and i grew to accept it... bt u did nt see... didnt see the broken condition u left me in... u didnt see the tears threatening to fall as i smiled, waving the final goodbye to u...
and even as u were gone, u tried ur bez, nt to make ur presence, or lack of it be felt... bt it was felt... tremedously... and it hurt so very much... it broke my heart nt being able to hear ur voice, see ur face... the closest i got to u was thru msn... lyk tt was much... everytime i spoke to u thru msn, i would start missing u so much again tt i would start crying again...
then the world started to crash down on me.. all the times wen i tought u were here, u were sumwhere else... ur heart, ur soul, ur mind... nowhere near me or any of those u left behind.. while we were left standing here lyk idiots, longing for ur presence, u were off... doing sumthing behind our backs... sumting totally shameful and sumting so hurtful tt it made me hate u so much...
bt deep down.. i could nv hate u... bcoz it was u who saved me from the depths of my sorrow.. it was u who made the sun come up, even in the nite.. it was u who saved me from myself... and it was u who brought me back to reality... u made me realise tt everyting is transient... nthin is permanent... tt's how we are.. and tt's how we will alwayz be..
so.. thank u...
Posted by r0ad5|d3 JuL|3+ at 3:43 PM
